Hey,
I just wanted to quick post that I forgot how good working out makes you feel, I am so happy I am getting back on track.
I will post a weekly update on Wednesday after the trainer :)
Monday, April 9, 2012
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Welcome Back.................ME!
Heyyyyyy.............
So I know this is a little shocking because I am BACK! I have been in such a loser mood and not the kind of loser that produces weight loss either. lol! I have not been blogging since October and it is safe to say I have not been working out or eating well either.............hmmmm...........where to begin?!
Here is what happen:
In October I started to stop going to weight watchers, it was partly because the cost and also because I stopped feeling like going. *TRUTH is closer to the second one* Then I stopped caring so much about how much I was eating, I stopped tracking and I stopped eating healthy foods, I cannot remember the last time I had an apple and that was my favorite snack. Well I gained back 10lbs since then :( I am bummed but I am also happy that before I gained back all my weight that I lost because that would have been TRAGIC!!! I was also afraid to get on the scale because I was thinking that when I finally did I would see that dreaded number again 400 :( I think that would have killed me. I was avoiding the scale, I was overeating, I was avoiding WW, I was smoking cigarettes and I was just a damn hot mess........What the heck?!
Now before I continue I do want to share good news, I did in that time find a wonderful job that I love so much, it is a great place for me and I am happy. Now back to the other stuff::
Realizing the truth:
Have you ever known something but pretended to be completely stupid so that you did not have to recognize it? Well I do and I did. LOL! I was just saying that I was not gaining any weight, I was not feeling like working out I was just not doing anything, I was just a freaking mess, mess mess mess......YIKES! So I was in the midst of sitting and eating and I said to myself, I swear I am going to get back on track.........well I was like I am going to do it yada yada, well then my friend was like lets meet at the gym and I PROMISED her I was going to sooooo I was like shit, I better. Well I went to meet her and I worked out and I had a feeling come over me that was one that I had felt before, it was a feeling of accomplishment and I liked that feeling. The next day I was super sore and I did not like that feeling but I knew it was a good thing, I said that is it, I am ready, I threw out the cigarettes and I said I am about to get started and soooooo this morning I went in and I started on the bike, now when I started on the bike I was like OMG my legsssss......they hurt but I pushed through and did 2 and a half miles, then I went and did some weight lifting, afterward I decided that I needed to speak to someone about what I should be doing and I decided that I would start working out with a personal trainer. SOOOooooo I started some of that today and she has told me that we will go every other day and next week I would feel the burn...............SCARY!!!!! I am looking forward to getting going and getting back on track because I am ready to lose again and I am ready to work my butt off well maybe my front lol, I don't have much ass to that I can afford to loose :)
Sooooo until next week thanks for reading
fatgirlsaywhat~
V!!!
So I know this is a little shocking because I am BACK! I have been in such a loser mood and not the kind of loser that produces weight loss either. lol! I have not been blogging since October and it is safe to say I have not been working out or eating well either.............hmmmm...........where to begin?!
Here is what happen:
In October I started to stop going to weight watchers, it was partly because the cost and also because I stopped feeling like going. *TRUTH is closer to the second one* Then I stopped caring so much about how much I was eating, I stopped tracking and I stopped eating healthy foods, I cannot remember the last time I had an apple and that was my favorite snack. Well I gained back 10lbs since then :( I am bummed but I am also happy that before I gained back all my weight that I lost because that would have been TRAGIC!!! I was also afraid to get on the scale because I was thinking that when I finally did I would see that dreaded number again 400 :( I think that would have killed me. I was avoiding the scale, I was overeating, I was avoiding WW, I was smoking cigarettes and I was just a damn hot mess........What the heck?!
Now before I continue I do want to share good news, I did in that time find a wonderful job that I love so much, it is a great place for me and I am happy. Now back to the other stuff::
Realizing the truth:
Have you ever known something but pretended to be completely stupid so that you did not have to recognize it? Well I do and I did. LOL! I was just saying that I was not gaining any weight, I was not feeling like working out I was just not doing anything, I was just a freaking mess, mess mess mess......YIKES! So I was in the midst of sitting and eating and I said to myself, I swear I am going to get back on track.........well I was like I am going to do it yada yada, well then my friend was like lets meet at the gym and I PROMISED her I was going to sooooo I was like shit, I better. Well I went to meet her and I worked out and I had a feeling come over me that was one that I had felt before, it was a feeling of accomplishment and I liked that feeling. The next day I was super sore and I did not like that feeling but I knew it was a good thing, I said that is it, I am ready, I threw out the cigarettes and I said I am about to get started and soooooo this morning I went in and I started on the bike, now when I started on the bike I was like OMG my legsssss......they hurt but I pushed through and did 2 and a half miles, then I went and did some weight lifting, afterward I decided that I needed to speak to someone about what I should be doing and I decided that I would start working out with a personal trainer. SOOOooooo I started some of that today and she has told me that we will go every other day and next week I would feel the burn...............SCARY!!!!! I am looking forward to getting going and getting back on track because I am ready to lose again and I am ready to work my butt off well maybe my front lol, I don't have much ass to that I can afford to loose :)
Sooooo until next week thanks for reading
fatgirlsaywhat~
V!!!
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Whoaaaa...........I fell off!
Hey everyone:
So I completely fell off. I stopped tracking stopped working out stopped caring about WW! BIG MISTAKE! I gained about 5lbs, I feel like a goof! I mean I know that I have a long way to go and I also know that I have come a long way but for whatever reason I just stopped feeling like being on the plan. Here is the gist:
So back in September Nikki told me that she was going to have to take a break from WW for her own personal reasons, right away I started to think in my head "Oh shit, I cannot do this without her" well I just was looking for a good excuse and that was as good as any, so I was off and running *not really* lol! Well I started to say stupid things to myself like "oh you lost 50lbs" yada yada, so I was thinking I understand the plan, I can kind of go through the day and just "watch" what I am eating. Hmmmpphhhh...........That did not work, partly because you cannot watch what you are eating without tracking and MOSTLY because I also decided to "relax" on working out. Now I am not sure why the hell I would assume that I could not workout, this is the part that I am most unsure of lol! So anyway I started to not workout I kept saying in my head, well you can just get back to it next week so on and so on, Well Weigh-In started to feel like a chore to me, I was dreading going and I was just being a total crab cake. Well I feel like my mood was another part of my lack of success, I mean the other two things did not help but I really feel like my lack of care for myself made it that much more worse. I was not wanting to be apart of the meetings because I did not want to accept responsibility for my actions. Annnnyyyyyyywaaayyyyy lets fast forward to yesterday, I knew when I went in I was going to be up, so my reaction was almost comic like, so I get to the meeting, I was late! I go in and I see Brenda and she is in a good mood but because I am being a BITCH I am all kinds of crabby so I get on the scale and it is up 2.2lbs so I am like I am outta here, I left. I was in my car and I was sitting there and I was really thinking to myself, "You should go to Arby's" then I said boy you are really stupid, I mean I am mad because I gained but I am going to go eat, I laughed about that, then I said I look crazy sitting here laughing to myself, so I said I am going to go to the gym, I mean I have been paying for it EVERY month and I had been just letting it sit there well I drove myself to Fitness 19 and I jumped on the bike and rode 12.60 miles I lifted 90lbs for 3 reps of 12 and I FELT great :) Then this morning I got up and I said I am making my way to the gym before I do anything else and I went and I did 10 miles ;) I feel so good, I am tracking tracking and measuring and I feel so good, I am feeling like I am ready to be back on track and here I am back to my blog, I am sorry for slacking but I am happy to have that bad set back because I needed to get myself together, I want to be at 75lbs by Jan 8th 2012 :) I am going to be great and I am ready to make that happen :)
Until Next Time,
Thanks for reading
fatgirlsaywhat~
V!
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