Week 2 Weigh-In!

~**CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS**~

First off I want to say a HUGE congrats to my P.I.C Nikki :) 3.6 LB. weight loss :) I am soooooo sooooo proud of her! YOU GO GIRL <3 I want to celebrate her victory, she did AWESOME! I love her and she kicked ass :) 

Now on to me:

I am really disappointed in myself, I lost .2lbs and I feel like a real failure. I mean I know that I had a hard week and I know that any loss is better then no loss, I just still feel bad, I am just upset, but at the same time I am getting over it! I did cry *AT THE MEETING* LOSER! But on the way home after talking to Nikki(THANKS) I thought 2 things, one I am not perfect and I am going to have to remember that this a slow process but a good one :) I feel better, I am not 100% but I will do better this week, I know where I went wrong and I will not let that happen this week. I don't even want to spend to much time on feeling bad, I cried over it and I vented like a mad women to Nikki so I feel better, I got an Apple and some Peanut Butter toast and a vanilla smoothie (thanks nik) and I moving one! It is really a NEW DAY* (thats for you nik, i was listening)

Tomorrow is Weigh-In! Week in review :)

So tomorrow me and my P.I.C (Nikki) go to weigh-in, I am looking forward to it, but I am scared also, I am scared of failure, but I am just going to stay positive. Here goes some of my weekly highlights :)

Once upon a time there was two SUPER BEAUTIFUL SAHM's.....................Just kidding here goes what really went on.

Me and Nik, started out our new week on Sat of last week with weight loss and continued beauty *thank god for both*, we were lucky as a son of a gun when we went to Subway to have lunch after weigh-in and were given our food for free :) Nikki, swears that everyone just likes to talk to me................Hmmmmm..............she might be right! lol! Just kidding ;) Anyway, we had a yummy sandwich and because they lady was so awesome I gave her a gift card I had in my purse, now all she has to do is put some money on it! LOL! Really it has money on it for a restaurant :)
Anywho..............Sunday: was good and I planned my menu for the week, I also looked for some workout DVD's I could use because I was planning on working my ass off on Monday ;) The rest of the week was touch and go, I had lot's of victories but some suck ass times too. Here are the suck ass things, I want to end on a high note! Suck-ass #1: MOOSE TRACKS nuff said Suck-ass#2 Chips and Cheese again Nuff said Suck-ass #3 Moose Tracks :) I really sucked with that one! lol :)
VICTORY TIME:
#1.1: I lost 5.2lbs/ Nikki lost too but I won't post her business!

SHIT YEAH!
#1: Stayed in points even with the above mentioned
#2: Went to my homegurl's Nikki's to celebrate MLK day with the kids, made some really yummy English muffin's pizzas, taste good and good for you <3
#3: Kicked Nikki's ass in a couple Scrabble games, now granted she did beat me more but we are talking about MY victory :)
#4: Got in WAY more water then last week.
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WORKED OUT 4 DAYS IN A ROW TO BILLY BLANKS JR. I LOVE CARDIOKIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am just doing rest day today my legs hurt ;S Start again tomorrow ;)

So all in all I had a good week, I had some down time but I am over it and that is good, I worked out and really gave it my all and I drank the boring H2O and besides that I made it through another week, and if that ain't enough you guys are still reading my mumbo jumbo so that makes me feel "like I'm the only girl in the world"! LOL! Really it makes me feel good..............So thanks guys.
Until tomorrow~
Fatgirlsaywhat,
~V~

Can I be honest?

I am really sad right now, I am angry and upset and the first thing I want to do is turn to food, I had 2 cups of Moose Tracks and I just want to eat more of it! I am so down right now, why do I always want to eat? WHY? Why can't I want to do something else like read or work out or cry or just who knows.

I really want to drown my emotions in the WHOLE tub of Moose Tracks, I just want to eat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am not going to, I am going to breathe deep, I am going to forgive myself for continuing to hate myself enough to want to fall into the trap and comfort of food I am going to pray, I am going to pray hard for understanding and will power, and I am going to THROW OUT THAT DAMN MOOSE TRACKS! FUCK MOOSE TRACKS :S.............well not fuck them but I am going to put it in the deep freezer, the next time I want to have some I will be walking my fat booty down to the basement and get it!

I am a DEBBIE DOWNER right now! Where the hell is my Nikki! I need some phone time!