I really f**ked up :**(

I am not going to make this to long, I am just going to say that I really fucked up today with my points, I used 101 pts today :( I was having a bad day and I used food as a way to make it a good day. Why you might wonder, I mean I am doing so well I have lost I have changed, I mean hell I just posted a whole blog on me being so different. Well I am just as much in wonderment. I am going to walk today, I am going to be proud of what I did do which is track I mean even though I was OUTRAGEOUS I still tracked everything I put in my mouth. I guess I should have known this was going to be a bad day, I mean really I went to subway and I ordered a fucking dozen cookies a damn dozen! SHAME is an understatement. I am pissed at me, I knew when I went to subway that I can only order one cookie otherwise I will eat more then one, I have to say I did NOT eat the whole dozen I had 4 of them I froze the rest. I am going to put those fuckers in the trash. FINAL! I did not even enjoy the 3 or 4 cookie I just ate them because I wanted to feel sorry for myself and decided to say hey I already fucked up the day I should just go for the glory. UGH..........anyway, I know two things one is today is done and I can not take it back but what I can do is remember this the next time I want to eat some cookies, remember that I don't feel good about myself not at all, the other thing I know is that I did track and I can for sure count on the fact that tomorrow is for sure a new day and I will start back over!
Until tomorrow thanks for reading:
fatgirlsaywhat~
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Man I feel good................FREAKING GOOD!

So, I feel so good and so happy! I feel like wow this might be possible I might be able to really pull this off. I am can not believe how much I changed my life............I am a Weight Watcher :) I am singing that it the old Wheel Of Fortune tune for Wheel Watcher. lol

So weigh-in was today and let me first off say, I was not looking for big numbers this week,I was not thinking anything really, I just wanted in the words of my PIC "not gain just maintain" she is a rapper :) LOL! First lets start with Mrs. Nikki, can we say awesome person, friend, mom, wife, sister but most of all Weight Watcher's Buddy! Nikki is more excited for me every week then she is for herself, she just makes me even that much more excited about my weight loss :) For that I say THANK YOU! Besides that she is kicking ass in her weight-loss, she is nearing her 5% and I am super PROUD of her :)

I am also SUPER proud of me, I am down 18.8lbs FUCK YEAH! I am so close to my 5% I can taste it!

Besides weight loss we are learning so many things so many truths about ourselves and our food fight, I mean learning how to handle ourselves when we feel the need to binge eat you know when life gets hard. I mean real truths, the kind that almost make you pissed that you learned them because it leaves you completely responsible for you, your eating and not eating excuse making and not excuse making! I LOVE WW! lol.

Something else is that I want to be different, I want to work-out I want to eat better, this weekend I passed up swimming and lounging to walk at a 10.9 incline for 15mins ;) I am new damn it I am new :)

Thanks for reading!
Until next week
fatgirlsaywhat~
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Me + Money = Bad Food!

So I am not able to have money :( When I do I often find myself pulling into fast food restaurants :( I mean I am NOT over my points, but I know that the best way to get my weight off is too stay away from that kind of stuff, sadly I know this about myself yet I still do it YIKES! I am going to HELP myself. Today I had Burger King for breakfast and a Culver's sundae after dinner! I don't feel bad about it, because I know I am not going to have it often but I still need to GET THIS UNDER CONTROL! Why am I posting this??? because I think that if I post it I will have to be accountable for my actions. I HOPE! Anyway that is enough about this for tonight! I have some walking to do. That is something good, I am on my Treadmill EVERYDAY!
Thanks so much for reading whoever is :)