Heyyyyyy.............
So I know this is a little shocking because I am BACK! I have been in such a loser mood and not the kind of loser that produces weight loss either. lol! I have not been blogging since October and it is safe to say I have not been working out or eating well either.............hmmmm...........where to begin?!
Here is what happen:
In October I started to stop going to weight watchers, it was partly because the cost and also because I stopped feeling like going. *TRUTH is closer to the second one* Then I stopped caring so much about how much I was eating, I stopped tracking and I stopped eating healthy foods, I cannot remember the last time I had an apple and that was my favorite snack. Well I gained back 10lbs since then :( I am bummed but I am also happy that before I gained back all my weight that I lost because that would have been TRAGIC!!! I was also afraid to get on the scale because I was thinking that when I finally did I would see that dreaded number again 400 :( I think that would have killed me. I was avoiding the scale, I was overeating, I was avoiding WW, I was smoking cigarettes and I was just a damn hot mess........What the heck?!
Now before I continue I do want to share good news, I did in that time find a wonderful job that I love so much, it is a great place for me and I am happy. Now back to the other stuff::
Realizing the truth:
Have you ever known something but pretended to be completely stupid so that you did not have to recognize it? Well I do and I did. LOL! I was just saying that I was not gaining any weight, I was not feeling like working out I was just not doing anything, I was just a freaking mess, mess mess mess......YIKES! So I was in the midst of sitting and eating and I said to myself, I swear I am going to get back on track.........well I was like I am going to do it yada yada, well then my friend was like lets meet at the gym and I PROMISED her I was going to sooooo I was like shit, I better. Well I went to meet her and I worked out and I had a feeling come over me that was one that I had felt before, it was a feeling of accomplishment and I liked that feeling. The next day I was super sore and I did not like that feeling but I knew it was a good thing, I said that is it, I am ready, I threw out the cigarettes and I said I am about to get started and soooooo this morning I went in and I started on the bike, now when I started on the bike I was like OMG my legsssss......they hurt but I pushed through and did 2 and a half miles, then I went and did some weight lifting, afterward I decided that I needed to speak to someone about what I should be doing and I decided that I would start working out with a personal trainer. SOOOooooo I started some of that today and she has told me that we will go every other day and next week I would feel the burn...............SCARY!!!!! I am looking forward to getting going and getting back on track because I am ready to lose again and I am ready to work my butt off well maybe my front lol, I don't have much ass to that I can afford to loose :)
Sooooo until next week thanks for reading
fatgirlsaywhat~
V!!!
