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Hey everyone:


I am so excited to be posting this blog today, I am really happy to say that after 6 months and 3 days I have made it to my 10% I am so excited, I am so proud and I am more then that soooo grateful, I have been so unbelievably lucky to have found an ahmahzing support system! 
Weight Watchers Jenison Saturday morning group is great, I have made so many friends there, I feel like when I go there I am with a group of people who have known me forever, it is not even the fact that they laugh at my craziness but it is the fact that they are all there for the same reason and each person wants to see the other do well, it is so fun and warm and welcoming :) I am soooo lucky to be apart of it! Dawn is the best leader EVER she is so funny and she makes meetings worth waking up for :) 
And then there is Nikki, I mean if you read this blog then you are well aware that I think she is the bee's knees! She is the number one reason I am at WW jenison group, she introduced me to that group and for that I am greatful! Man I am one lucky lady! Great friends and supporters makes for a great weight loss journey! 
When I first started I swear on a stack of IHOP pancakes I did not think I would get to my 10% it seemed so far away, I mean shit I was just hoping to lose 5 or 10lbs and I was going to be happy and then I lost 5% and I was like this is very possible I might be able to do it, so today when I got up this morning I was thinking about weigh in and I was nervous because I always am, and I was like well I am going to hit up the gym first, and so I went to Fitness  19 and I did 2 miles on the bike and then I got outta there and I was thinking to myself, I sure hope that helps! lmao! I had been having a bloated week, I was having my stupid period and so I was really worried and because I was on I did not want to workout so I was sure it would back fire, but it did not! Today when I went in a got on the scale I was like SHUT THE FUCK UP! I mean I really said that, these sweet women prob. want to cringe at my potty mouth but I was just so happy! They all cheered and let me give my little speech and talk about Nikki and how much all of them have helped me, I love them ladies! So yeah that is it! Here I am 10% of my weight gone and almost out of the 80's and into the 70's what what!!!! Here are some pics :) Me with my golden key chain and then my weigh in sticker.
Thanks so much for reading

fatgirlsaywhat~

V!

I am a gym member :)

Hey ya'll, 

So here it is Saturday and like I said I would I am posting so I am keeping my word ;) 

Lets see, as you can see by my title, I have officially joined a gym! I am soooooo excited to join because I will have an opportunity to try out lots of different machines and get a really good total body workout! *That was funny to me for me to say that* 

I decided after really not much thinking at all to join Fitness 19! The price was right and so it was the spot for me, they have a lot of clean equipment and they have a daycare so I have zero excuse for not going out and getting my sweat on, well I am sure I could come up with something but I will not! 

Let's talk about................WEIGH-IN! *Pervs*  So I was really happy today to be down, I was down 4.6lb which made my total 38.2 lbs gone :) I am so happy to back in the losing game, I just want to get this weight off me and I know it is not going to happen over night but damn by night two I should be skinny! lol! just kidding I am willing to work for it but I have to say last week was one of the hardest weeks EVER for me, I just really wanted to give up, I did not want to loose anymore I did not want to try anymore, but then I got a postcard in the mail from my WW leader Dawn who just reminded me that I am worth it, I am worth all of the work and I am able to be a winner in this weight loss race, I was so touched to receive that post card she was thinking about me, me someone else was so I knew I had to be thinking about me also. I am thinking now, about me, I am back on track and I am going to get to my 10% and then other goals from there, I just needed to remind myself of all the things I have done and thankfully Nikki was in my ear reminding me as well, we are a team and I remember that I mean how dare I want to quit? She did not give up on me one time, she walked she talked she listened and even when she had bad weeks she did not once utter the words quit! I will never say that again, I will not quit on me and I damn sure won't quit on Nikki! 

So as far as the number game goes I weigh 385.2 for a total of 38.2lbs gone ;) that makes me happy! I also went down a points plus value 58 pts a day now, however I have decided to try the old Core plan which is not called the Simply Filling plan, all you do is eat power foods and you can eat as many as you need to fill full and then you can also if you must use your weekly breakdown points which is 49 so that you can fill that craving you might have, I mean it is a win win! So I am looking forward to trying this for a couple weeks to see how I do, I am hopeful that it will be successful. 

I figure that plan and my new gym plan and I will be feeling pretty darn good. I got my very own GTL going on, Gym, Tracking, Losing! Oh YEAH! 

Until next week my friends, 

Thanks for reading

fatgirlsaywhat~

V!

Hey y'all,
So I have not been in the blogging mood, I am sure it is because in all honesty I am sure it is because I have not been following the plan like I should be :( I am not sure what got into me, I mean I was all ready Freddy and really it seemed that I was made for this program and then all of a sudden I started to get that feeling like "you got this, you can handle eating and not tracking every single thing" BIG MISTAKE! I have been up 3.8lbs lost 3 just to turn around and gain 2.8 back, what the heck?
Well I mean it ain't that hard to figure out I am sure it has something to do with the 8 pack of fun size snickers that I had or maybe the late night Keebler Club cracker binges I went on or hell maybe the lack of exercise, I have a feeling that all of the above could have something to do with it.
Well I have to tell you I went to my meeting last weekend and I did my weigh in and because it was the walk-it challenge day I wanted to keep up a brave face, I wanted to be happy I wanted to be ready to walk and prove that I could finish a 5K because god knows I had never tried one in the past, but to be honest in my heart I was crying, yelling and insulting myself, WHY WHY WHY and HOW HOW HOW could I let myself do this I was on a role, I was moving and shaking, I was changing, I mean I was the life of the party, I was the one who was going through with no problem, yeah that was me but here I was again, fat, tired, angry sad and even more so ashamed ASHAMED! I was again me the me I know the me I don't love the me who can not just eat one because that makes sense nooooo I have to have 9 because that just taste better and then they are gone and I don't have to see them again. What a shame, What a shame. Well I walked the 5K, I walked it with one of my favorite people and the whole time my mind was on the fact that I was back to square one in my mind, back to super fat and super stupid me, I could not focus on the fact that while I was beating myself up I was walking, walking and yup more walking! Nikki was so great she was looking back and offering me lots of encouragement, praise and she would even slow down so this big person could keep up, she was my legs, she was my cheerleader, she was my friend because god knows I was not being a friend to myself. Well I pushed on, I thought about the fact that I was almost 400lbs and here I was walking, I thought about the fact that I would rather drop dead at the finish line then to be the last one done, the fact that Nikki was there and she was not going to finish without me, I wanted to cry because the truth was I wanted to stop walking I wanted to stop and take a break I wanted to stop at the damn half way point and drink some water and get my barrings, I mean I could have and she would have understood because that is how she is, but I did not want to give myself one more thing to say that I did NOT do, so on I went. Half way let me tell you felt like the whole damn way, I am almost certin that it was over half! lol! But we passed it and I watched my chance at rest go away, moving on..........I remember when we made it back to the street we started on and Nikki said to me, see we are almost done you are doing so good, I wanted to tell her that I could not walk another step but she was smiling and talking about anything but that damn walk so I shut-up and I acted like I was listening (sorry Nik) inside I was thinking FINISH LINE PLEASE! So we started to approach the finish line and they were waiting there with the sign and Nikki says come one lets just jog through and so we did and I felt like a weight was off me, I was so tired I was so sore and I was so happy, WE DID IT! She was the best thing to me at that point someone who wanted to see me do it more then I wanted to, she believed in me and I did not, she was like a proud mama *she ought to know she is a mom of 5*. We took some pics and went to get some refreshments and they were good :) Lots of fruits and water it was the best day. I feel like I have been refreshed after that walk and a long talk with my leader, I am aware of what I was doing wrong and I am ready to make it right again! Wish me luck ;) I am going to slap that old me in the face and get back into the right frame of mind, I have to remember that this weight loss is like that 5K hard, long, tiring but damn sure worth every step and there is going to be a finish line if I just keep walking :) I am so grateful for a friend like Nikki, I am grateful for all my support. I will end this with a pic of us at the finish line, and yes we always look that damn good ;) Thanks for reading and this time I mean it until next Sat~
fatgirlsaywhat~
V!