It's that time...........YUCKY WEIGH IN!

Hey ya'll!

So here we are June 25th, we went to weigh-in this morning I have to say right off top it was not the most successful weigh in of my life. Before I go on let me go back. 
Last week Saturday I did not gain or lose I just stayed the same. I was happy about that because I was like well at least I maintained. YADA YADA! Anyway I was not feeling one way or the other I was just going to go on about my week. I started out completly WRONG I was not tracking like I should have been, I did not write down everything I ate on Saturday and to add fuel to the fire or butter to the pancakes, whatever you pleasure, I went out drinking with my two besties! Oh Saturday, of course after the bar I ate a blueberry donut and then the next day was Father's Day and lets just say that I did not track then either.............This went on for the rest of the week, I went to Maggie Moo's, Taco Bell, Burger King, Chinese and Arby's. I guess it is safe to say I was not starving. lol! Anyway here we are at Saturday. I got on the scale after telling myself I would NOT weigh-in, I could not bring myself to not do it, I would have felt like an even bigger loser if I did not. So anyway I get weighed in and I gained 4 lbs :( I was not shocked, but I was and am VERY DISAPPOINTED in myself. I know in my heart I really want this I want it so bad, but sometimes it is so hard for me to be in control of the person inside of me, who say's give up, stop trying and hey look at that cake! She is alive and she is still got a lot of life in her, she can make me feel like a million bucks or 1/2 penny, I know that the person inside me that I used to be is trying so hard to get back in control of me of my life, I just have to figure out a way to have fun and celebrate life without food. I need to stop thinking about how hard this is and start thinking about how hard it is to be so big and how it feels to no love yourself. I know what I need to do and this week I will be back and I will be better. Or at least healthier :)

~**TEN TEN TEN**~

Hey everyone:


I am so excited to be posting this blog today, I am really happy to say that after 6 months and 3 days I have made it to my 10% I am so excited, I am so proud and I am more then that soooo grateful, I have been so unbelievably lucky to have found an ahmahzing support system! 
Weight Watchers Jenison Saturday morning group is great, I have made so many friends there, I feel like when I go there I am with a group of people who have known me forever, it is not even the fact that they laugh at my craziness but it is the fact that they are all there for the same reason and each person wants to see the other do well, it is so fun and warm and welcoming :) I am soooo lucky to be apart of it! Dawn is the best leader EVER she is so funny and she makes meetings worth waking up for :) 
And then there is Nikki, I mean if you read this blog then you are well aware that I think she is the bee's knees! She is the number one reason I am at WW jenison group, she introduced me to that group and for that I am greatful! Man I am one lucky lady! Great friends and supporters makes for a great weight loss journey! 
When I first started I swear on a stack of IHOP pancakes I did not think I would get to my 10% it seemed so far away, I mean shit I was just hoping to lose 5 or 10lbs and I was going to be happy and then I lost 5% and I was like this is very possible I might be able to do it, so today when I got up this morning I was thinking about weigh in and I was nervous because I always am, and I was like well I am going to hit up the gym first, and so I went to Fitness  19 and I did 2 miles on the bike and then I got outta there and I was thinking to myself, I sure hope that helps! lmao! I had been having a bloated week, I was having my stupid period and so I was really worried and because I was on I did not want to workout so I was sure it would back fire, but it did not! Today when I went in a got on the scale I was like SHUT THE FUCK UP! I mean I really said that, these sweet women prob. want to cringe at my potty mouth but I was just so happy! They all cheered and let me give my little speech and talk about Nikki and how much all of them have helped me, I love them ladies! So yeah that is it! Here I am 10% of my weight gone and almost out of the 80's and into the 70's what what!!!! Here are some pics :) Me with my golden key chain and then my weigh in sticker.
Thanks so much for reading

fatgirlsaywhat~

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I am a gym member :)

Hey ya'll, 

So here it is Saturday and like I said I would I am posting so I am keeping my word ;) 

Lets see, as you can see by my title, I have officially joined a gym! I am soooooo excited to join because I will have an opportunity to try out lots of different machines and get a really good total body workout! *That was funny to me for me to say that* 

I decided after really not much thinking at all to join Fitness 19! The price was right and so it was the spot for me, they have a lot of clean equipment and they have a daycare so I have zero excuse for not going out and getting my sweat on, well I am sure I could come up with something but I will not! 

Let's talk about................WEIGH-IN! *Pervs*  So I was really happy today to be down, I was down 4.6lb which made my total 38.2 lbs gone :) I am so happy to back in the losing game, I just want to get this weight off me and I know it is not going to happen over night but damn by night two I should be skinny! lol! just kidding I am willing to work for it but I have to say last week was one of the hardest weeks EVER for me, I just really wanted to give up, I did not want to loose anymore I did not want to try anymore, but then I got a postcard in the mail from my WW leader Dawn who just reminded me that I am worth it, I am worth all of the work and I am able to be a winner in this weight loss race, I was so touched to receive that post card she was thinking about me, me someone else was so I knew I had to be thinking about me also. I am thinking now, about me, I am back on track and I am going to get to my 10% and then other goals from there, I just needed to remind myself of all the things I have done and thankfully Nikki was in my ear reminding me as well, we are a team and I remember that I mean how dare I want to quit? She did not give up on me one time, she walked she talked she listened and even when she had bad weeks she did not once utter the words quit! I will never say that again, I will not quit on me and I damn sure won't quit on Nikki! 

So as far as the number game goes I weigh 385.2 for a total of 38.2lbs gone ;) that makes me happy! I also went down a points plus value 58 pts a day now, however I have decided to try the old Core plan which is not called the Simply Filling plan, all you do is eat power foods and you can eat as many as you need to fill full and then you can also if you must use your weekly breakdown points which is 49 so that you can fill that craving you might have, I mean it is a win win! So I am looking forward to trying this for a couple weeks to see how I do, I am hopeful that it will be successful. 

I figure that plan and my new gym plan and I will be feeling pretty darn good. I got my very own GTL going on, Gym, Tracking, Losing! Oh YEAH! 

Until next week my friends, 

Thanks for reading

fatgirlsaywhat~

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