Hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!
So here I am in the middle of the week, I have had 1 bad food day and I am going to let it go, I mean hell I already ate the stupid chips 'n' cheese so I can not take it back.................RIGHT???!! lol! Just kidding I know better.
Anyway I have been spending a lot of time reading what has worked for other people, recipes dos and don't s yada yada, and I have found some good recipes and tips, I love Hungry Girl so much, Kraft and Healthy Living site. I have found so many things that I can make that don't make you feel like you are missing out on anything, I mean just swapping out somethings for others can make a BIG difference :)
Working out:
Working out is really work...........REALLY! lol! But it is a rewarding work the kind were you don't want to kill your boss, well maybe sometimes but not for the most part. I am so PROUD of myself for doing it, but if I am going to be real I have to say that although I am proud of myself I am sad, angry and just disgusted with how I let myself get. I mean I really don't have a excuse for it, I can blame it on so many things, I mean let's think who can I blame..................Well there is......Nah! I know who it is and it is ME! I stopped caring about myself one day, I don't know why, I don't really even know when but I know that it happen. I think about how many times I have been like "I swear I will never weigh over 300lbs" then you know you just keep changing the number because once you get there it is easy to say well at least I am not such and such, I have done that and just from really trying these last couple of weeks and reading and learning I have learned that I just made a shit ton of excuses for my self hatred and excuse eating. I want to be different, I want too not be ashamed of myself, I want to feel confident when I go to my kids school, I don't want other kids too look at me and laugh and I don't want too hide myself from myself, rather I want to take a full body picture and like it maybe even love it, I want to not feel like people are looking at me because I am eating but looking because I am just good looking.............WAIT A MIN I am good looking so I mean GREAT LOOKING! lol. I am just ready for change, I am taking charge of my life and loving myself damn it........."I like me, I really like me" lol! I hope everyone is having a good week!
Thanks for reading
~Fatgirlsaywhat~
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V. I am soooo proud of you for writing out your thoughts and continuing on your journey. IT takes ALOT to put it all out there and recognize what has happened, why and to try to dig out of it and move on. Listen to me, lol if I could only continue to make this work for myself. Maybe I should get one of these blog things! xoxo
ReplyDeleteThanks Amanda :) You will see that blogging is really helpful :)
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