Well it is the day after our fantastic weigh-in and for some reason even though I am feeling good and proud of myself I just want to self sabotage, I don't know why I always do this sort of thing. I am I guess afraid of doing well, afraid that I will do well and then mess up or something. I don't know! I do know that yesterday I stayed within my points but I did want to eat something sweet, so I made whole wheat pancakes from scratch with a little vanilla and put syrup on them and had some Turkey Bacon, it did the trick and I felt good because it was a meal and it was very filling. I felt better afterward as well because I did not have the treat that I wanted at first, I know you can have them if you have the points but I also know that if I do that it will make the process take longer and I want to learn to eat a better balance of food. I have almost completely given up pop :) I am happy about that, this has just been a secret goal I have been having with myself, I only drink diet anyway, but I wanted to just drink water with the occasional diet pop or juice, I know things are looking up for me and down on the scale and I love that, I love feeling like I might be able to pull this off, I have to lose 11 lbs and then I am going to post my weight! I am EXCITED to get to that point, I have never shared my weight with anyone (kinda did with Nikki on Sat, but I swore her to keep it secret) lol! I feel like if I put it out there I will have to be more determined to lose. I HOPE! lol, otherwise, I am feeling good, I got the treadmill so I am just waiting for Chuck to help me with it today. I am proud of myself and I am proud of Nikki, I am going to learn to be okay with success, because I plan on having a lot more of them.
Something positive about me: I am funny! (at least I am to myself)
Till tomorrow thanks for reading
fatgirlsaywhat~V!
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