Whoaaaa...........I fell off!

Hey everyone:

So I completely fell off. I stopped tracking stopped working out stopped caring about WW! BIG MISTAKE! I gained about 5lbs, I feel like a goof! I mean I know that I have a long way to go and I also know that I have come a long way but for whatever reason I just stopped feeling like being on the plan. Here is the gist: 

So back in September Nikki told me that she was going to have to take a break from WW for her own personal reasons, right away I started to think in my head "Oh shit, I cannot do this without her" well I just was looking for a good excuse and that was as good as any, so I was off and running *not really* lol!   Well I started to say stupid things to myself like "oh you lost 50lbs" yada yada, so I was thinking I understand the plan, I can kind of go through the day and just "watch" what I am eating. Hmmmpphhhh...........That did not work, partly because you cannot watch what you are eating without tracking and MOSTLY because I also decided to "relax" on working out. Now I am not sure why the hell I would assume that I could not workout, this is the part that I am most unsure of lol! So anyway I started to not workout I kept saying in my head, well you can just get back to it next week so on and so on, Well Weigh-In started to feel like a chore to me, I was dreading going and I was just being a total crab cake. Well I feel like my mood was another part of my lack of success, I mean the other two things did not help but I really feel like my lack of care for myself made it that much more worse. I was not wanting to be apart of the meetings because I did not want to accept responsibility for my actions. Annnnyyyyyyywaaayyyyy lets fast forward to yesterday, I knew when I went in I was going to be up, so my reaction was almost comic like, so I get to the meeting, I was late! I go in and I see Brenda and she is in a good mood but because I am being a BITCH I am all kinds of crabby so I get on the scale and it is up 2.2lbs so I am like I am outta here, I left. I was in my car and I was sitting there and I was really thinking to myself, "You should go to Arby's" then I said boy you are really stupid, I mean I am mad because I gained but I am going to go eat, I laughed about that, then I said I look crazy sitting here laughing to myself, so I said I am going to go to the gym, I mean I have been paying for it EVERY month and I had been just letting it sit there well I drove myself to Fitness 19 and I jumped on the bike and rode 12.60 miles I lifted 90lbs for 3 reps of 12 and I FELT great :) Then this morning I got up and I said I am making my way to the gym before I do anything else and I went and I did 10 miles ;) I feel so good, I am tracking tracking and measuring and I feel so good, I am feeling like I am ready to be back on track and here I am back to my blog, I am sorry for slacking but I am happy to have that bad set back because I needed to get myself together, I want to be at 75lbs by Jan 8th 2012 :) I am going to be great and I am ready to make that happen :)

Until Next Time,

Thanks for reading

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