Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Can I be honest?

I am really sad right now, I am angry and upset and the first thing I want to do is turn to food, I had 2 cups of Moose Tracks and I just want to eat more of it! I am so down right now, why do I always want to eat? WHY? Why can't I want to do something else like read or work out or cry or just who knows.

I really want to drown my emotions in the WHOLE tub of Moose Tracks, I just want to eat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am not going to, I am going to breathe deep, I am going to forgive myself for continuing to hate myself enough to want to fall into the trap and comfort of food I am going to pray, I am going to pray hard for understanding and will power, and I am going to THROW OUT THAT DAMN MOOSE TRACKS! FUCK MOOSE TRACKS :S.............well not fuck them but I am going to put it in the deep freezer, the next time I want to have some I will be walking my fat booty down to the basement and get it!

I am a DEBBIE DOWNER right now! Where the hell is my Nikki! I need some phone time!

2 comments:

  1. Hey girl its ok you are not a debbie downer. it sounds like you know food is not the answer so go workout that stress :)
    email me if you ever need to talk it goes right to my phone tryn2bfit@gmail.com and email me if you want my number you can call me anytime you need support! I have been where you are so many times.

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  2. Colleen: Thank you so much! I am going to email you today. I really could use someone to talk too. I thought about working out, I am going to be buying a treadmill in 8 days and I can not wait!

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