So,I am having a bad food day for some reason, I just want to eat. I want to have things I should not have and I am not sure why. I feel like I am trying to self sabotage or something. Why would I want to do that? I think about it and then I think the reason why is because I am afraid of success, I am afraid that if I do keep on going and then lose a lot and then gain it back I will look "stupid" this has always been a problem for me, I am always the saver of things for other people, I always want to help others but will do anything I can to not help myself.
I am tired of this circle of same ol same ol. I know I have the smarts to do anything, but sometimes I feel like I have this monkey on my back that is aiming for me to fail! I am going to get over the fact that I had a serving a chip n cheese and realize that I am human and I am not perfect and I am a work in progress.................I am going to make it! I do love myself, I am doing this for myself, I want to be healthy and I want to be here for my kids and for my whole family I want to be who I know I am. I want to live ;)
You can do this! and 5.2 lbs is sooo awesome. It took me two months to lose 3 and then I gained half of that back, but I weigh in again (myself) on Wednesday.. But girl YOU GOT THIS! xoxo
ReplyDeleteAmanda:Thank you so much, it really means a lot to me that you took the time to follow my blog and to comment :) WE can do this <3
ReplyDeleteGirl, I keep telling you EAT what YOU CRAVE!!! :) That's the beauty of this program... and I know you have the pts to eat what you crave right now, you are just too damn hard on yourself... it's the beginning, you have to learn what works for you and remember... slow and steady wins the race! xoxo
ReplyDeleteNikki: I <3 You! I ate it so I am over it now, but I am going to keep in mind that if I have to think about it and feel bad maybe I should pass on it.
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