I know I already posted today but I just need too again!

Rejection! What does that do to you? How does it make you feel? Does it make or break your day?

I am suffering right now from rejection, I will not go into details as this is a very public blog, but I will say that I am feeling rejected. Because of this I started to think about how rejection plays a part in my life.

When I was younger it was a big deal not to feel rejected or "left out" and now even in my adult life I find that I am still very much the same. What can rejection do to me now? How can it make me feel? Can it make me choose to feel sorry enough for me that I go and do the one thing that has NEVER rejected me? Will I eat? I mean that is what I am most comfortable with, what has always been a best friend, boyfriend, sibling or even enemy to me. I will not, not today because I will rather take the time to sit here and think about this.
I wonder how many times in life I have felt rejection and choose to eat something. I would guess about 300+ times. I am not sure why I am like this, I mean for the most part I know that I have a lot of good quality's about me, and I know that how I feel about me is what is the most important thing. So I wonder how come it is so hard to believe? Why is it that we (maybe you IDK) allow ourselves to be 100% alright with feeling like a loser? not good enough and just down right blah? Well I don't know but what I do know is that it is not going to continue to be a problem for me because I am uncovering secrets about me, deep ones some dark ones, some that like 1 doz cookies even LOL! I am alright, I am not rejected because I would NEVER reject me and as long as I keep remembering that I will never feel like this again, and to be honest I don't feel like that anymore, I feel like this: Good because I came in here and I blogged, I stopped and thought and took control of my mind and made a decision and I am alright with it. :) This just made me feel good. I hope that someone reads this and feels like I make some sense maybe you feel the same way sometimes, maybe all the time either way I thank you for reading! So until next time I promise not again today!
Thanks for reading
fatgirlsaywhat~
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