A lesson learned is a lesson earned :) I juat made that up! lol ;) 2/20/11

Good Morning five people who read this ;) LOL! 

So I had a WONDERFUL weekend! It was my baby's 11th birthday and I have to tell you nothing makes me more happy then getting together with family and friends and really when it is friends like these it is just all family anyway <3

So anyway to the blog:

Yesterday morning was weigh-in! I will start with Mrs. Nikki, can I just tell you this lady is on the way to being a skinny bitch :) She is on the lowest possible pts and I am DAMN proud of her, I think she had *can't remember, I am 29 lol* over 2 & 1/2 lb lost. WhoooooWeeee *country voice* I am most proud of her ability to accept and deal with all of her weight loss be it a victory or a struggle :) YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!!!!!! lol ;) Love you! 

To me: I hate talking about myself! lol! That is what you call sacasim, anywho: So first off I want to say that I was very SHOCKED :O that I had a loss at all, I mean I am sure that you five read about my cookie outbreak! Anyway, I don't EVER want to have that happen to me again, and to be honest I learned from the outbreak. I am not ever going to be the kind of person that can just pass up a sweet, I love them I mean I would almost be tempted to marry these damn cookie's. I am also aware that I am a "when the going gets tough" believer, I can say that I am afraid of success, I am afraid of continued weight-loss, and that fear is because I am afraid of being a disappointment, not just too me but too everyone that has invested time in rooting for me. It has always been easy for me to stay in that old body * I mean I am down almost 20 so I will call it in old body* I can just eat and feel sorry for myself and blame my situation on whatever or I can be in charge of myself and in charge of my eating and say NO cookies, No cakes and I don't mean NO all the time, I mean NO I don't want a dozen cookies because I only need one, no I don't want to have 2 large pcs of cake because in fact 1 small-med pc will take care of that sweet craving and afterwards I don't have to feel like I just murdered someone! I mean because in fact I have attempted to murder someone and that is the new me, who is still new born and fragile. Life is full of lesson's some good some bad but all lesson's and I am always going to be a student when it comes to healthy living! 

So I move on, I did loose ;) SHIT YEAH! I lost 1 lb. and I am damn happy. I am down 19.8 lbs and my 5% is as close as it can be, I hope I see it next week. I want me and Nikki to celebrate our 5% together. 

So this week the goal is to continue to track, track, track, walk make good choices and love myself and I do! 

Until next time Thanks for reading!

fatgirlsaywhat~

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