Back To Life.......Back To Reality!

Hey everyone, 

So I have been a blogging bs'er :( SORRY!

So here I am ready to update and get back on track. 

We went to weigh-in on Saturday and I stayed the same 380.6! I was not happy and I was not mad but I was disappointed because I know that I have not been doing my best, I mean if I were doing my best I would be so much more closer to my goal. I am almost another 16 weeks in and I have only lost about 5lbs :( I lost 35 lbs in the last 16 weeks.  I feel like an idiot, I am paying for WW every month, I am paying 40$ to go and listen to the meeting (which I enjoy very much) but at the same time, I am not using my skills like I should. I have not been working out and I have started to slack on my tracking.
     I have always been upfront with myself and the people who read this about my crap and I am not going to stop now, I have been terrible at tracking, guessing and not using my messuring spoons when it is time to make my plate, just eye balling things.
    Well yesterday when we went to weigh-in, I came home and I told Chuck about it, and I said "I am so sick of staying at the same weight!" and he said to me "well what do you expect? You have given up on your self, you stop going to the gym and working out that is what is going to happen" Now after he said this I thought to myself HOW DARE HE? But you know what how dare he not, I mean that is what he should do, I needed him to call me out on my shit. He did not say it to hurt me, he did not point out the fact that we have had snickers that "disapered" from the house. No, he just told me what was VERY true, I was giving up on myself. So I got on the phone and I called fitness 19 and I asked them what I have to do to come back and they let me know that I just needed to pay my 18$ balance and I could get back to business. Well I am going to pay on Wednesday, and I am BACK there, in the meantime I will workout here at the house, I already started this morning with my manual treadmill :) I feel better already. I am going to stop giving up on myself and start remembering that I can do this.

Nikki:
So Nik is doing well, she is almost at her 10% and I am really proud of her, she has been dong water aerobics in her family pool ;) LUCKY! And yesterday she wore a shirt that I got for her when we first started WW and she looked like she was swimming in it :) YOU GO GIRL! lol! So she is doing well, and is off to Vegas. I will miss my WW buddy while she is gone but I am hoping that we both have some good number news to share with each other when she gets back :)

So yeah, that is that. I am going to make sure I work hard all this week and get my booty back into the gym and remember that I can and will lose more weight :)

Thanks for reading
fatgirlsaywhat~
V!